Sorted out part Ricky’s anniversary present today. Also going to bed smelling of him.
Today was a good day.
I always think cats are cute and funny until I meet them in real life and I remember I hate them.
Such is life.
Off to London on Tuesday with Ricky!
First time away by myself. I’m nineteen and this is genuinely my first time traveling and staying away without some sorta supervision. So excited :) five days with my guy!
Someone started a conversation with me on my Facebook wall or whatever it’s called and then abruptly changed their mind and went short with me. Okay. That’s not weird. :|
“Good luck finding someone that’ll put up with you again. No one would be as stupid me.”
Must be the worst thing to say to someone when breaking up. Makes you feel like a burden to everyone, too much to handle. That is never true. the person that ‘will put up with you’ would never think of you as a burden or think of spending time with you as ‘putting up with you.’ Anyone that says that to you, is saying it to make you feel worthless and small and make you think no one else will care about you so you’ll stick around with them and keep you under their control. Just saw it happen in a tv show and remembered my ex saying it to me.
There’s someone out there for everyone, and the one for you won’t want to control you.
I heard listening to rain calms you, so I found a two hour long video of the sound of rain on YouTube and thought I’ll try fall asleep to it. I lasted 49 seconds before getting more irritated and turning it off.
Listening to ‘calming music’ instead now. Much better.
I don’t think I’ve ever been so stressed in my entire life. Seriously need to calm down before my blood pressure goes through the roof.
All I want is for myself and Ricky to be well and then life will be fine and dandy.
Sleeping in Ricky’s hoodie and wishing I was with him. Big brave guy that I love so much.
Don’t you love that one friend that it doesn’t matter how long you go without talking, you can literally talk about anything and they’re happy enough to chat away about it. Or just start talking copious amounts of rubbish with?
Love you Shaunna, lots.
Severely hope my course is worth it in the end. £60 for travel alone this week. I would very much like my travel expenses paid for to get to college but that ain’t happening. And £80 from saas a month doesn’t help anything. Hmmm. Hopefully get more orders for bedroom walls to paint then I don’t have to work ridiculous shifts in Burger King.
Also, got a wedding coming up this month to sing at. Lets hope the money starts coming in so I have money that I’m not just giving straight to scotrail.
I hate people that complain about not having money and then post pictures of their new clothes or their night out. WHERE ARE YOU GETTING THIS FREE STUFF?! ‘Cause my ass is broke too and I want in on that secret!
I remember when I used to care what I looked like to go see Ricky. I went to his house in my Jammie shirt, Mickey Mouse wearing a Santa hat hoodie, leggings and slippers last night. Sorry I stopped Caring baby :P